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OFFICIAL HIATUS POST

Wed, 05 Nov 2025 23:46:46 GMT

i haven't really been on dreamwidth recently

mostly just haven't been feeling the need to be a part of it

and like. i looked over failfandomanon and stuff and. people don't like seeing me around. honestly deserved.

(ALSO TO CLEAR SOMETHING UP: I DID NOT LIE ABOUT BEING OVER 18 TO JOIN EXCHANGES. i have no idea where that came from but. (AT THE TIME OF ME BEING A MINOR SIGNING UP FOR EXCHANGES) juletide let minors join. asog let minors join. fandomgrowthexchange let minors join. the exchange anniversary exchange deleted my signup because i said i was a minor in it and i didnt re-sign up i just took the L like a normal person I WAS 18 WHEN I SIGNED UP FOR CANDY HEARTS AND ALL OTHER EXCHANGE SIGNUPS ARE AFTER THAT)

i know people said that like. fests were ok but i suppose their minds changed. or at least they didn't mean the fests here, or well failfandomanon is not a monolith and they all have different opinions regarding whether or not i should be beating myself up over what i did forever or just stay far away from BFE or maybe just take on some new identity or whatever the heck!!! (even if i did take on said new identity and. didn't repeat what i did and actually behaved there is a non-zero chance people would connect the new me to the old me anyways and paint me as even eviler. or at least thats what im scared of.)

yeah i know i cant win. i sound like the most self-pitying person on the planet right now im sure. no matter what i say im an evil person who honestly is better off in jail.

sunset archive fear not i. did consider emailing the owner but like. none of melos friends ever want anything to do with me (rightfully so!!! i kinda suck as a person!! lets all agree on that!) so. also wont be joining squidgeworld either but i will let you all know they explicitly permit underage rpf as long as its archive-locked which... melo i hope you're at least a little pissed about that

so like. you can go join ladiesbingo and seasonsoffandom and generalpromptsbingo and everything now (except for one comm ill stay at ofc but just. just one comm. one thats not really a part of the BFE sphere yknow)

and also feel free to spread this link around btw!!! post it all over FFA so they know n ppl can comment under ur comment about like. how chibiusa would be better at this than me or whatever. i hope the thread that that quip about chibiusa that someone made while y'all were talking about me was fun. i like it when i have things to do with literally any positive contribution to the world. sorry if me posting this link in the servers sounds like an attention grab i just dont wanna take that gamble of nobody seeing this

anyways farewell!!! im not going to kill myself but for all intents and purposes you can pretend i did so you can laugh about it or fake sympathy or whathaveyou. and i know you're gonna quip about me coming back but jokes on you im not coming back outside of literally just that one comm

edit: holy hell failfandomanon was right i have bad impulse control. another reason why i should not be here. but alas failfandomanon should know... it is safe for you to join seasons of fandom/communal creators/other bfe events again. be free. dont let me haunt you

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IIBB snippet or: I HAD TO. GUYS I HAD TO. I REMEMBERED A QUIP I HEARD BACK IN 2022(?) AND HAD TO

Wed, 17 Sep 2025 17:31:56 GMT

"... Siffrin?" She asked.
He tossed the bucket aside and jumped off the branch. "Such is the name they call me. And you are?"
Mirabelle froze. Didn't... Didn't he... remember...
... He did have a bad memory. But... *that* bad...?
"... Mirabelle." She said. "... My name is Mirabelle."
"Well, then, Mirabelle." Siffrin smiled with a bit too many teeth. "Welcome to Streibough."

Real LAL fans know what i mean

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baby's first sigtags!!!!

Wed, 03 Sep 2025 06:01:32 GMT

My First Sig Tag	Text Only	How's 2025 Been Treating You?	Guilty Pleasure

my sisters cat	Princess: The Hopeful	Pokemon	Crystal Monsters (Kiticon)
Non-Fandom	Toy or Game	Starts With...	Team Pride

soapuppies & dirtkitties!	Cassette Beasts	Cassette Beasts (Cat-5)	(img from unsplash)
Favorite 1: canonically trans character!	Favorite 2: live a live character!	Favorite 3: villain character!	Favorite 4: octopath traveller CotC character!

Cassette Beasts	Live A Live	Live A Live	OCT A LIVE crossover event
Favorite 5: Paradox Pokemon	Favorite 6: favorite pic of my cat	Favorite 7: Pokemon!	Favorite 8: Queerplatonic Ship! (mirafrinnnnn)

PMD: Ultra Apocalypse (art of my own Iron Darwin, F, is used instead of the official reference for Iron Darwin here because why not)	my (mother's) cat	Pokemon	In Stars And Time
Artist's Choice #1	Artist's Choice #2. alternate universe where oersted is a hot girl	Artist's Choice #3	Artist's Choice #4

OCT A LIVE crossover event	Live A Live	Wildfrost x PMD: Rifts Of Fate (the eevee pictured is my starter, Bom! she's based offa the bom)	In Stars And Time

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happy creativeclash and also happy bbtp 2025

Tue, 02 Sep 2025 00:02:16 GMT

( cree in a maid outfit i drew from memory getting nonconned by a spitzfyre )

this is at least partially a shitpost

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not signing up for petplay flash but

Mon, 07 Apr 2025 22:54:49 GMT

maybe i should write eugene noncon petplay for super_effucktive

hm

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official hiatus post

Sun, 06 Apr 2025 01:46:58 GMT

hi! under the advice of many others i will be stepping away from doing exchanges

i will still do fests, prompts, bingos, etc but no exchanges for me for the foreseeable future!

sorry if making a public post like this is a bit Much, i wanted to be clear and transparent about this.

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thinkin about cb? fusion quotes? or somethin?

Fri, 04 Apr 2025 04:32:08 GMT

Tayio:

"… If Cass dies here… if we both die here… it'd be my fault, wouldn't it?"

"… Mom always said life was the most important thing… the only thing worth taking a life over is to save another…"

"… We're not gonna die here."

"… At the very least, I won't let Cass die!"

Quxi:

"Shut up!"

"Taking people's things… claiming it's for their own good…"

"… An object is only a symbol! It is by love for an object a person can express their love for another person, for a skill, a passion, anything…"

"… If you won't get that…"

"… We'll just have to beat it into you!"

Felis:

"… I've peaked. I'm nothing, now. My art's gone downhill…"

"… Not even ending up here, on this strange island's helped at all…"

"… But I can't just die now. There's still something left in me, isn't there?"

"… Let's find out what it is together, Cass."

Nicki:

"I... I'm not a lot!"

"I'm just a hyperactive girl who wishes she was as cool as Cass!"

"You're right that I'm not very much! I want to be someone, but I can't!"

"Maybe I'll never be cool! Maybe I'll never be the cool girl I want to be in my dreams!"

"… But maybe I'll be a new kind of cool! Maybe I'll be a kind of cool that I never expected to be!"

"… And that 'cool' starts with me amd Cass defeating you!"

(no Romeo quotes… i should think about what her quest is about lol)

Leslie:

"… Hating people for who they are…"

"… I never expected that of you! I thought- I thought you had a real reason to hate trans people …"

"… But it's just because they exist in a way you don't like? Life their lives outside of what they've been told to?!"

"What makes you any different from Rusty's parents?! What makes you any different from someone who hates lesbians?!"

"… Agh! Let's pummel her to the ground, Cass!"

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aesthetics bingo!!!

Thu, 03 Apr 2025 17:57:21 GMT

Post-Apocalyptic	Comfy / Cozy / Hygge	Solarpunk	Xenophile	Forestpunk
Cottagecore	Oceanpunk	Golden Hour	Yuppie	Lagenlook / Layered Look
Victorian	Safari	WILD CARD	Scandinavian Decor / Fashion	Hollywood Regency
Bohemian	Angelcore / Demoncore	Hippie	Cyberpunk	Ukrainian New Wave
Fantasy	Yé-yé	Hellenic	Hallyu / Korean Wave	Emo (music

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usamoon + stereotypes

Thu, 03 Apr 2025 15:35:30 GMT

Flowers: "… Weird, but I don't need to purify you- You think the Darkness is here to stay?! No, I'll get rid of it, just you see!"

Currents: "A bunch of boring scientists that can't even see how beautiful this world is- hold on, what are you cheering over-!?! Tell me what that thing is, I wanna know!… If you don't forget how to be fun, then being scientists is ok! Wanna hear what I know about kitty cats?!"

Jewels: "… You don't need to think so much about this! Everyone should just listen to me- I'm pure of heart! My queen said so!"

Spades: "Stop messing with me!! Why are you laughing?!"

Swords: "If it's done out of love, it can't be wrong!"

Storms: "Stop! I can purify the Darkness myself, so please, don't-!"

Tears: "… You don't need to do this anymore- I'll cleanse the world of the Darkness!"

Mirrors: "You're LYING! I'M the True Heir, not you!"

- specific characters -

Cure Sunshine: "I'll make sure they remember you too when they talk about me once I'm done!"

Trinity: "Evil imposter! I'll break these people free from your spell!"

Stormites: "… Those five girls look familiar…"

Mousey: "Spread the news of my pure heart far and wide, ok?"

Cyn: "You're studying? Tell me something fun you learned! Something cool, or maybe something about kitty cats, or bunnies- I like bunnies! Did you know the reason why anime has a lot of moon bunnies is because in Japan they think there's bunnies on the moon?"

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tf flash letter!

Wed, 02 Apr 2025 03:50:04 GMT

HIIIIII CREATOR :D (or pinch hitter)
ty for creatin for me <3

cassette beasts
( Read more... )

princess: the hopeful (crystal edition)
(opt-in: court of melodies + the courts outlined in the expansion that isn't finished yet + court of stars)
( Read more... )

live a live
( Read more... )

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considering fanfundom exploded…

Tue, 01 Apr 2025 03:15:49 GMT

… i wonder if i should go make a games comm like fandom-emmpire instead

we can play like. battleship but its called "guess what tropes i like" and you get points for writing crayonfic /hj

alternatively i could finally set up stickerfics and maybe put up a little event there too lol

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Thu, 20 Mar 2025 01:23:08 GMT

avoiding your feelings has to be somewhat healthier than wallowwing in them

what do i even do about this? shut off all the stupid parts of my brain so i dont fucking make mistakes like that again AND dont care about the consequences of the ones i HAVE made?

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watching the (second to) final episode of the joe schmo show rn

Wed, 19 Mar 2025 01:21:15 GMT

im like. ben n maya PLEASE stay friends

they r my brotp. ben very much likes her a LOT (platonically) and i am. :3 i love them

edit: just finished it

i love them so much AAAAAAAAAAAA brotp of all time

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mirrors and stones

Tue, 18 Mar 2025 04:50:32 GMT

so mirrors it's more like "I am the only person that can do this.".selfish behavior such as being a little brat excused by "It's early payment for when i save the world." something like that.
and of course there are some mirrors that don't act so haughty i think. especially in crystal where specchio drives them a less inherently bratty kind of fucking insane and the descriptions for the fractured conditions are basically "she is going through a bad time rn" lol. she's the only one who can save the world, can stop the darkness once and for all, which means that nobody else is more capable than her, which means that every job she passes is a job that won't be done right, and who knows what could happen? the seeker must investigate every mystery or else the truth will never be known, the mender must heal every injury or else it will fester- if the troubadour does not perform, who will uplift the people's spirits? any replacemennt that comes will only make them think of her, surely.

stones. well stones doesn't have a proper writeup for their crystal version yet but its more like."you are not good enough. give more of yourself." no matter how much you give it's not enough and it won't be. you're letting them down. if you take time for yourself thats time wasted.

the true heir is perfect. she is good enough- the ONLY ONE good enough. that is why she must and will handle every problem that comes her way

no princess of stones is ever good enough. that's why they work harder- and give themselves away until there's no more of themselves to give.

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Tue, 18 Mar 2025 04:14:06 GMT

what makes someone a good person? what makes someone a bad person?

which one am i closest too, i wonder.

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man.

Mon, 17 Mar 2025 17:32:51 GMT

*staring at the crystal edition regalia rules* this kid's frying pan is a mechanical mashap

(what I'm thinking: bonnie isat gets the frying pan as regalia and can cast anthem and kiai with it, it has practical (+emulate equipment) and charmed gives untransformed access to anthem)

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in unrelated news

Sun, 16 Mar 2025 18:33:44 GMT

i saw that the amazing digital circus is on netflix! maybe I'll watch it, it seems popular

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tfw

Sun, 16 Mar 2025 18:20:43 GMT

*watch 'my oni girl'*

*look it up to see it kinda sucks*

*feel bummed because i ate mac n cheese to it*

thats not even that sacred of a meal i get that twice a week.

still. no use beating myself up over feeling stupid emotions. oh well.

edit: looked it up on dreamwidth. i. do agree that there were stiill some unanswered questions that don't seem like purposeful sequel hooks or fanfic fuel. mainly what the fuck was up with the entire *gestures at snow gods and rituals and hirragi turning around*

tsumugi has a nice design tho. big fan of her hair gradient

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just finished dungeoon meshi season 2

Sun, 16 Mar 2025 01:35:21 GMT

cannot wait for season 3!

or maybe i should just catch up via the manga?

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Sat, 15 Mar 2025 02:40:46 GMT

alright. tomorroow i think i will ask for ways to seek Proper Support that are accessible by paperwhite, because it's either that, keep being toxic and horrible, or curl up and die inside

hopefully the wildflower alliance can help me. worst comes to worst ig ill make a comm just to vent in

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Sat, 15 Mar 2025 02:27:26 GMT

hey quick question how mean can you be to someone talking to you (kinda. in a public discord server) about your fave in a fusion au of a canon you do not know and also you're kinda not into magical girls until someone should have really told you to settle down and also they might have mischaracterized him based off of something you relyed about the artbook

i am the person rambling about magical girls btw

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crossposting to rainbowfic later

Fri, 14 Mar 2025 16:03:00 GMT

PCE Cats (Memory Of Cacophony -> Moonsparkle Hill):

The not-cat language has many words for love! theres a word for romantic love, quuerplatonic love, and a generic word that could mean either. there also WAS a word specifically just for platonic like "i love you" said to friends or family members, but that word fell from the common lexicon sometime during the Earth era, meaning that Orbit is going to have some culture shock if he ends up in the current pce era AND that a few not-cat scholars will be curious about him

tbh considering the length of time between MoC and canonical pce (includ. MsH) orbit (and plums, if she also joins them there) there could be all sorts of language differences between them lol

I imagine there's a word that translates to "Partner/Best Friend" and is used exclusively to refer to large groups or future prospects lol

Aerie:

the Shepfolk word for dog translates to 'sheepdog'. to refer to a pet that doesn't do herding duties, 'pet' from 'pet sheep' is placed in front

many elven/part-elven (such as shepfolk) cultures have direct translations for words such as "xenogender" & "neopronoun". they also have a word for "a gender which has traits of both male and female but is neither". aka mary's gender

yes arthur freaked out and shook mary when she realized they know what a xenogender is

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plex problems

Fri, 14 Mar 2025 14:54:56 GMT

for some reason plex on the tv isnt noticing that i have a media library set up on my computer? like its still got the generic screen…

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