OFFICIAL HIATUS POST

[himejoshiheart]

 i haven't really been on dreamwidth recently

mostly just haven't been feeling the need to be a part of it

and like. i looked over failfandomanon and stuff and. people don't like seeing me around. honestly deserved.

(ALSO TO CLEAR SOMETHING UP: I DID NOT LIE ABOUT BEING OVER 18 TO JOIN EXCHANGES. i have no idea where that came from but. (AT THE TIME OF ME BEING A MINOR SIGNING UP FOR EXCHANGES) juletide let minors join. asog let minors join. fandomgrowthexchange let minors join. the exchange anniversary exchange deleted my signup because i said i was a minor in it and i didnt re-sign up i just took the L like a normal person I WAS 18 WHEN I SIGNED UP FOR CANDY HEARTS AND ALL OTHER EXCHANGE SIGNUPS ARE AFTER THAT)

i know people said that like. fests were ok but i suppose their minds changed. or at least they didn't mean the fests here, or well failfandomanon is not a monolith and they all have different opinions regarding whether or not i should be beating myself up over what i did forever or just stay far away from BFE or maybe just take on some new identity or whatever the heck!!! (even if i did take on said new identity and. didn't repeat what i did and actually behaved there is a non-zero chance people would connect the new me to the old me anyways and paint me as even eviler. or at least thats what im scared of.)

yeah i know i cant win. i sound like the most self-pitying person on the planet right now im sure. no matter what i say im an evil person who honestly is better off in jail. 

sunset archive fear not i. did consider emailing the owner but like. none of melos friends ever want anything to do with me (rightfully so!!! i kinda suck as a person!! lets all agree on that!) so. also wont be joining squidgeworld either but i will let you all know they explicitly permit underage rpf as long as its archive-locked which... melo i hope you're at least a little pissed about that

so like. you can go join ladiesbingo and seasonsoffandom and generalpromptsbingo and everything now (except for one comm ill stay at ofc but just. just one comm. one thats not really a part of the BFE sphere yknow)

and also feel free to spread this link around btw!!! post it all over FFA so they know n ppl can comment under ur comment about like. how chibiusa would be better at this than me or whatever. i hope the thread that that quip about chibiusa that someone made while y'all were talking about me was fun. i like it when i have things to do with literally any positive contribution to the world. sorry if me posting this link in the servers sounds like an attention grab i just dont wanna take that gamble of nobody seeing this

anyways farewell!!! im not going to kill myself but for all intents and purposes you can pretend i did so you can laugh about it or fake sympathy or whathaveyou. and i know you're gonna quip about me coming back but jokes on you im not coming back outside of literally just that one comm

edit: holy hell failfandomanon was right i have bad impulse control. another reason why i should not be here. but alas failfandomanon should know... it is safe for you to join seasons of fandom/communal creators/other bfe events again. be free. dont let me haunt you